Thought I would blog today because I am super duper cranky. Better to rant and rave on the web then continue yelling at the kids....

Ever have one of those days? I am tired. I went to bed late the my hubby left early for work and the kids got up early so I could not sleep. Decided I would tidy up and have a nap in the afternoon. I think I must be mentally challenged. Have a nap in the afternoon. Unless my kids are unconsious or not here it will not happen. The only thing that happens is the more I try to sleep and can't, the crankier I get.

Now the friggen dog is whinning and whinning and whinning. The kids are just fooling around but yelling and being loud and it is all driving me crazy.

I decided to clean up my kitchen. Sean found all these dishes we did not know we had. I wanted to organize them. Can someone just please shot me and put me out of my misery. I read the FlyLady website and tried to shine my sink. It ain't shinny.

Now the friggen dog is BARKING AND BARKING AND BARKING. Remember he is 140 pounds so his bark is LOUD. Did I mention he is sitting right beside my chair as I type.

Then I am mad so I order Pizza for dinner. I am an emotional eater. I am mad so I order pizza. Stupid. So I just spent 50$ and got crap for dinner. I will throw some veggies on the kids plate to make my consious feel better.........

My kitchen is piled high on the counters and kitchen top with pans/dishes. I tried to wipe out the cupboard of the spilled oil but it just will not come out. UG........

I just want a nap

It is a day when you just get mad at yourself for being so cranky. You think I am a crappy mother. You feel sorry for yourself.

How do you organize life? Because you know as Oprah says, you are upset over the kitchen sink but really it does so much deeper then that. I feel like I am running in circles. My house is a mess all the time. I just never have enough time and energy to get anything done. Sometimes I feel one step ahead and two steps back.....

I guess the first thing is to stop feeling sorry for myself. Check

Get off my ass and put the stupid dishes away, when I am finished writing.

One thing I can say was ok today is I did a craft with the kids and the kids next door who were here ALLLLL day. I did a bit of laundry.
The cupboard in the kitchen is sorta clean. The dog did stop barking. My son just told me he did not want me to give the dog away. He just gave me a whole argument for it.

Do you think kids have an indoor voice? I kinda think it is just on or off! I think they have a wax build up so they can not hear each other unless they yell. Maybe my crankiness has made my hearing more acute.

I need a magic wand. A friend to kick me in the ass and help would be nice too. Don't have either at the moment though......

Ok I am going to close for now, the kids are playing on Seans big screen tv and he will freak out if there is finger prints on it...

Later Blog Friends

Queenie

Hello All

Lets see, what is new…..

My son’s birthday is next weekend. I have only heard from one of his five school friends. It bugs me. I wish people would respond to an invitation either way. Oh well. I have gotten the goodie bags ready for all the kids. I just need to finish up some of the things.

Had a talk to Sean about the dog. Well can’t really say it was a “talk”. I talked to him about finding the dog a home and he just got mad. I tried to tell him all my points and that the guy who walks the dog found a possible home for him. Was not a very productive conversation to say the least. He was just really mad. I told him the main thing is if he wants to keep the dog he has to put in an effort. Take him off of the rope in the house, take him for walks ect. I don’t always want to be the one who has to look after the dog.

My Dad and I had a huge blow up this week. I guess it was all for the best. We pretty much came to an understanding. He says he just wants a quite stress free life. He wants to live his own life and we all live ours. He does not want to hear about my problems/fights or anything. Ok fine. I said if the is what you want. It is hard because we were all so close when my mom was alive. She was my friend, we talked about everything. I guess it is time I realized he is my Dad not my friend. I was a little hurt but I think it will be better for everyone.

So I started to eat healthier a few weeks ago. I have lost ten pounds so far. Need to work harder cause I still have a long way to go but it is a start. My cloths fit a little better now so that makes me happy.

Have not been able to sleep very well lately. Have been going to bed to late. Need to work on getting more sleep.

I guess all and all everything has been ok. Just can not wait till spring……….

Queenie

Hey there everyone, no I did not fall off of the world or anything hehehe.

I took a break from blogging, I guess I did not feel the need for a bit.

I am so stuck on ebay. I think Sean and I cruse it like everyday. I got a bunch of stuff for my sons party. I have to say thought, it is funny how one place in the USA takes 5 days to ship me something where another place in the USA takes three weeks! One of my things has gone missing :( major decoration stuff. I think I need a USA contact person to have this stuff sent to then shipped to me!!!

My kids are out with my sister right now. No we are not officially talking yet because she has not apologized to me. She called to ask if she could drop the kids off their valentine presents and take them to the show today. I suspect my father had a hand in that but oh well. I would never stop her from seeing the kids just because I am upset with her.

I have been thinking about finding a good home for my dog. Sean and I have had this conversation many times. It is always me who wants to find him a home and Sean that says no way. But I have been thinking about it a lot. He is tied up most of the time unless I let him off the rope. Sean never does on his off days for what ever reason. The dog just takes up the whole kitchen. We can not put a kitchen table in the kitchen because of him being there on the rope ect. Then there is the cost of maintaining him…. I don’t know, part of me feels sad because I love my dog and want to keep him but then part of me sees just how much easier life would be if I found him a good home. He deserves a better life. So now I don’t know what to do……

Sean and I are ok. He has been sick lately with a head cold. Really kicked the crap out of him. I am trying to work with him to make our relationship better. Talking listening to Dr.Phil. I say oh I read this…. and he gets this glazed look in his eyes. What is it about men eh? I just want to have a more fulfilling relationship. Want to connect more not just exist. Want to enjoy my life and improve my sex life but boy oh boy is that another story…..

I lost 5 pounds. Yeah ho. I decided enough was enough. I don’t want to get more over weight and have health problems like my mom and my grand mother. Both of them died young from weight related issues. My coworker did weight watchers and has kind of been my guide. I ate chocolate last night and god did I feel guilty. But I am not falling off the wagon just yet. I would love to loose about 40 eventually but baby steps…..

Ok well I am gona close and start cooking chicken for dinner. Will check out some blogs later…..

Queenie

It seems like forever since I posted a message or read anyone else’s. Just got busy I guess....

Lets see what is new....

Ayden joined Science Club in school. He is very excited about that. It is only for 5 weeks but he has not really had interest in joining anything before so I encouraged this. They are going to be doing experiments and such. It will be good for him. He has a mini lab in his room with a bunch of dissected bugs he exams under his microscope.

He has not been getting zero's lately. So much for that. I guess Santa’s magic wore off! He is not "bad" in school, she says he is disruptive. He is a joker in the class and makes the kids laugh. We talked about this last night. Problem is we talk about behaviour and reactions and such and I tell him you are responsible for your own reactions to things, people can't "make" you do something (referring to him and his sister 'she made me do it') So he tells me the teacher said that it is Ayden’s fault the class is disrupted and he made everyone laugh.

So he says but mom you said everyone is responsible for their own actions and no one can make you do something. I did not tell the kids to laugh. Good Point Ayden.

I think his teacher is up tight anyway. Not saying that he does not maybe interrupt stuff and be silly but I think she blows things out of proportion some times.

I am officially and Ebay-er now. I have bought some Pokemon stuff for Ayden. Lord shipping is a lot. At first I was only looking to buy from Canada but it really limited me. But shipping and handling from the US can be so much more then what you are buying.....

I have a plan though. I am looking at Pokemon stuff. Ayden's birthday party theme. I have gotten some cards and party supplies. I figured instead of going to the dollar store to buy prizes for games, I get a bunch of Pokemon cards and give them out as prizes. They would probably like that so much more.

Problem is, I got my first batch yesterday. Ok call me softy but initially I told Ayden he could go through them to see if there were any he really needed but I wanted to use most of them for the loot bags. Well I got 60 cards and I don't want to show them to him. I was thinking how I could go about letting him have like 10 and save 50 for the bags (5 card per bag and 10 kids)

But as a collector of things myself I don't want to give in and let him have more because he is collecting them. I have not figured out what to do yet so I have hid them till I figure it out

Kids are sick again. Ayden is really getting knocked down. Feel bad for him. Told Sean to let him stay home from school today to snuggle on the couch and play video games. Gracie started with the "my ear hurts" I told Sean to take them to the clinic today...

I am staying over at my friends house tonight to get my hair done. My hair, oh lord. It is just blaa. I used to have it long ish one length a bit past my shoulders. It just hangs there because it is so thin. So one day I decided to take the plunge and got it chopped off. Problem was when it started growing back I went back to a different person (first one not available anymore) and she did not do it the same. It is so bad now. So my friend is gona "fix me"

Been listening to Dr. Phil a lot lately. He is a pretty smart guy. A lot of the stuff he says makes sense.

Ok should go back to work now....

Take care bloggers

Kenna